In my own head

Lots of thoughts swirling around these days. Want to get them out but can't seem to. I wonder about so much. I am doing a good job with Petey, try to convince myself I am doing a good job with Petey, will/should Petey be an only child, am I a good wife, does anyone actually like me, if I fell off the face of the earth would anyone care (not in a wanting to hurt myself kind of way more a feeling very anonymous kind of way these days), should I reach out more and who to.

It's a busy head I have and yet it's all stuck in there.

Let it snow , let it snow...no, no ,no!

It's around today. We didn't get any here but all around us is snow. I saw lots of cars on my way to work today covered in the white stuff so it wasn't that far away. My feelings towards snow...I HATE IT! This is the absolute worse time of year (well now until april). Cold mornings, bitter winds and always checking the weather forecast. Yuck! Give me a nice warm, sunny day anytime!

I had to work today and my work place is exposed to the elements. We are under cover but with large garage doors open on both sides. Trying to sit at a computer for 3 Hours with a bitter wind blowing at you and having to pay close attention can be a challenge. I had on 5 layers of clothing, a scarf, hat and gloves with hot packs in them and was still cold. I think I maybe in trouble come February!

Missed a Day

I've tried! Monday was a long day. Time change still got the peanut a little off kilter and it is really affecting his mood. What a little devil! Rained all day so there was no getting out of the house and add that to getting dark earlier man i was in a bad mood! next two days are out of whack a bit. I am working two days instead if the usual one and the man has meetings constantly plus an evening function. No way to make the car thing work so we rented a car for two days to allow us both to have cars. I can't wait until we get this car thing sorted. I NEED TO HAVE A CAR! I am just not a walker and love the freedom having a car gives me. I feel like peanut and I miss out on alot by not just being able to pick up and go. Hopefully by next week we will be a two car family again and the boy and I can work on the socializing again! I know it won't be the car we get but let's put up the dream car today:

Time Change and the Toddler

Remember the days when you looked to the fall time change because of the extra hour of sleep? If you are the parent of a toddler you will have discovered how it is no longer a good thing! What a day! Up at 7, napping by noon, nap lasting only one hour and hell on wheels for the rest of the day. Beditme couldn't come fast enough and it actually came early. That means tomorrow will probably be a close repeat! Not something to look forward to. I'm guessing this will take most of the week to work our way through. To top it off I am changing medication and it is a difficult changeover. My old meds cause flu like symptons when you stop taking them and I am feeling like crap. Guess i should be in bed if I am going to cope tomorrow!

Better add a smile:

Good Day and Welcome to Day 2

Wow I made it two days in a row!

Today was a good day with the Peanut. We all headed out to window shop at a high end mall. I feel comfortable that if tonight we are the winners of 30 million that I could put a nice dent in it very easily. Petey behaved fairly well and ate a good lunch. Days out like this make me believe that he will be able to go out in public on a steady basis. Some days I worry that we may never be able to leave the house again. Shortly after pulling out of the parking lot he was fast asleep and we were right on time for nap time. He and I both had afternoon naps while Daddy watched TV. Tonight we headed out for dinner and it went really well. We didn't have dessert because the Peanut doesn't seem to make it that long through a meal but most of it was good. After that was the big saturday night trip to Walmart (seems like the family thing to do around here) and a snowsuit purchase. Now we are home and everyone is ready for bed. All and all a good day!

Let's Try Again!

So there is no doubt about I am not a good blogger. Lots of interesting ideas swirl in my head but they get stuck trying to get out onto the page (screen?). It's time to commit to this again. So I joined NaBloPoMo but being me I missed the first day of the month! So let's see if I can do it for the rest of the month. They say it takes 21 times to make a habit so by Nov. 23rd I will be totally committed or ready to be committed.

To make this post take up more room and add a smile: