In my own head

Lots of thoughts swirling around these days. Want to get them out but can't seem to. I wonder about so much. I am doing a good job with Petey, try to convince myself I am doing a good job with Petey, will/should Petey be an only child, am I a good wife, does anyone actually like me, if I fell off the face of the earth would anyone care (not in a wanting to hurt myself kind of way more a feeling very anonymous kind of way these days), should I reach out more and who to.

It's a busy head I have and yet it's all stuck in there.